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So, I was informed tonight that my problem is I want to be a saint, but actually, I am kind of douchey, and it was like an aha moment, making so much make sense. It led me to this, that maybe I was angry because I was not being true to myself? I don't know, but honestly, I have felt so free, I don't know what the future holds, but I know I have the power, the capability and the will to make it fucking bitching.